Monday, June 25, 2012



I need a break from my brain
a vacation from my mind
a reprieve from an unwelcome inheritance
an alternate route from the neural pathways I never chose but have been thrust upon me.

I'd like to anticipate without dread
I'd like to plan and look forward without fear
I'd like to feel good things, unencumbered by temperance.

Just for a day
I'd like to sing and work,
laying down all accessories
all shame and doubt
all hesitation
all censorship

I'd like to know me
in raw form.
I wonder who I'd be.

I'd like to feel completely;
air
water
vastness
hardness of stone
prick of grass
cold sluicing streams 
warm sunning
rivers washing detritus away.

I'd like to be of my body
self possessed
naked
accepting
clean.

I'd like to be pure
to be raw
to be rid of history,
naked and new
filled with love
and peace,
agression
and jealousy,
if the situation called for it
- not because my mother's
mother's mother's mother's mother
would have. 

I want to be a wolf woman,
a mama bear eating berries,
predator, prey, ruled by need
by survival, by ingenuity. 

I just want to breathe
unhampered by resignation,
unconscious of concrete,
unthinking,

unthinking...
unthinking...
unthinking...

1 comment:

Larissa said...

Love this. So powerful. Real tells a story at the same time.