To use a term my oldest friend uses to describe her husband’s dynamic within his friendships, I am a high maintenance (HM) friend. By extension blue algae is a high maintenance entity.
HM means, simply, that others do a disproportionate amount of the work of staying connected and engaged. I don’t do my fair share. It’s my greatest social failing. I’m not practiced at all. And I’m not proud of it.
That being the case I am constantly amazed (really there are no words for it) by the support that is offered up freely here in the comments section of my blog. Folks I don’t know, folks I do know who know me well enough to not anticipate reciprocity on any kind of timely schedule, support me, encourage me. I almost can’t fathom why. But then, I know, most people are good and kind. When those folks find someone lame upon the road they travel, they feel compelled to help in whatever way they can. I get that because I feel it too. Somehow though I’m always surprised to be on the receiving end of that miracle. I feel astonished and so full of gratitude that I can hardly contain it. Really, I’m getting stretch marks just sitting here.
I’m working on being lower maintenance. I want to thank them, you, even if you’ve “only” thought good thoughts for me. It’s not enough, but it’s all I got. Thank you!!